Holy crap! I’m so proud =D now off to replenish my fuel with tasty veggies and protein =]

So, if y’all are not aware, I’ve had my fair share of food issues and I stopped counting calories. I think I’m going to start again. Not obsessively, but generally so that I’m not over eating. I’m still going to eat whenever I’m hungry and I’m going to shoot for three actual meals a day with some snacks, and I’m going to go back to eating clean for the most part. =]

Good luck to me!

Here are updates:

It has been a magical thing where I hadn’t thought about my weight or body in the month up until a couple days when I had an “OH. I have a fitblr!” moment. But I’ve never felt so free in my whole life! Go me!

I have been eating semi-healthy. I want to get back to eating even healthier, because I have found I am more tired/grouchy as of late, and I want to treat my body better and get the proper amount of nutrients.

I’m no longer vegetarian, for now. I need to eat more protein, and if meat is the only protein that sounds appetizing then by golly I’m going to eat it. 

On the same note as above, I am fully aware that variety is important, but for right now I just need to eat what’s healthy and tastes good, and fine-tune everything else later.

I want to get back into cardio and weight-lifting to slim down and tone up. This is for a couple different reasons: one is life-long health, the other is related to my gender identity (private message me if you’re curious). 

HERE WE GO AGAIN!

Tomorrow I’m going to wake up and have oatmeal, and then I’m going to pack a sandwich with peanut butter and grape jelly and carrot sticks and orange slices. Oh, and tea. I need tea.

breathing-freely-again:

brittany1499:

“I wonder if killing yourself is the only thing you can control in your entire life, and that’s why it’s a sin. Because you’re beating God at his own game.”

— Pete Wentz (via poetrea)

I haven’t heard this take on suicide before in my life, but it’s so powerful, and maybe half-true. I’m not going to bring God into this, but let’s consider how much control anyone really has. I’m not at all saying that all suicides stem from the same place, but think about the numbers of people do it because they feel powerless.

Society tells us how to look, how to act, what to enjoy, who to love. You’re not a size six or you don’t have abs or you don’t dress “appropriately” for your gender? Expect to be bullied for being a fatty or freak. You try and break free from an abusive home or don’t bother coddling everyone else by putting up a facade of happiness? Then you are disrespectful, misbehaving, rebellious, an emo or a pussy, right? You’re a guy who likes guys? Faggot. Girl who likes girls? Dyke. Somewhere in between who loves everyone? The absolute freak of nature. Have you been sexually, physically, or emotionally abused? Can’t you just be quiet already, we’re a little busy figuring out *just* how short your skirt was and how much damage you’ll be doing to your attacker’s future by reporting this. You using food stamps to save gas to make it to your job and improve your standard of living? Good-for-nothing free loader. 

We make people feel like there is no room for ANYTHING, whether it’s self-expression, poverty, or openly acknowledging and dealing with negative emotions. We teach kids to be “unique” but shun them when they’re not what we really wanted. We expect people to either get counseling (which we often fail to make available or affordable), and society as a whole sends the message that it is “better” or “easier” on everyone if people just keeps their problems to themselves and stop being Negative Nancies and Emo teens. 

And at the end of the day, when we have lost one more person, we ask why they didn’t feel like they could be themselves. We wonder why they didn’t feel like they could reach out and talk to someone. We wonder why they left so quietly.

Because society - WE - seemingly took away every other option. 

I know that there are some free counseling centers and a few friends with open arms, but it’s not enough. Our society is narrow-minded at best and does it’s best to avoid emotions that we are told are unacceptable: sadness, anger, and fear. Until we all choose to proactively be better listeners with open hearts and less judgement, there will be no change. It’s time to create options, not take them away.

(Source: panicatthewinchesters)